Diary, it’s been 2 days and I have already not gone through with any of my new years resolutions. As with most of you I am sure when you made your resolutions you were serious about keeping them this year but it is soo much easier to be serious about big changes when you are full of liquor and idk what else, I know I was. This year I decided to make resolutions that would be easier to keep other than the lose weight, be more generous, better at work, more focused on my relationship and be a better person all while ending hunger and creating world peace.
I have decided to make me a better person which is exactly what most people intend for the resolutions all year long but as the days turn into weeks and weeks into months, your social calendar fills up and excuses hurriedly follow. It is easy to leave your well meant resolutions behind. Two days in and I already have plenty of excuses to not be on point.
The three days I have had off from work I keep seeing shows, reading articles, hearing conversations and they all keep pointing me in the direction of something more than just bettering myself. My whole life I thought I was this go getter and different from everyone else. I swore the last thing that would ever happen to me would be that I would move back to my home town, get a regular 9 to 5, and fall back into the same situation I ran for the hills from. I see more and more how many opportunities I was given that I passed up. They all boil down to me realizing I am not a go getter. Yeah, I work hard and I have no problem getting my hands dirty but when it comes to taking risks, real ones I turn and run. You always hear that if you don’t go after an opportunity you may not get another one. I feel like I have been handed many and I always assumed another one would be on its way when I was ready. The older I get the less willing I am to take these risks but even more so the less I see these opportunities coming my way and as I sit in my office at 30 making an ok living, back near where I grew up, still struggling with bills, weight, my relationship and even friendships I wonder when will I be fed up enough to take the risks or create them for myself.
As special as I always thought I was I see I took it for granted. Now I am mediocre, I don’t mean that in a low self esteem way but I rode what I thought was my awesome wave for so long now it has become nothing more than a ripple. Eventually it will be come stagnant if I don’t start making some waves of my own. Now, I’m not trying to be a Debbie Downer especially right at the beginning of the new year but as time passes it seems to go by quicker and quicker. At the rate it is going by I will be elderly before I get on the ball and get the guts to make some moves. I know I am not the only one. It is easy to say maybe next time or I’ll get to it.
My resolution is no more next time, not more getting to it. I want to grab it, run after it and take it before there is nothing left to take. I think we should all make that our resolution. There is no reason why we can’t. The only result will be your happiness…depending on your resolution that is. I know the effort and perhaps the distance you have to go to get your result will in the end always be worth it if you put the work in. It should never be to late to be a go getter. It is never late to make your life what you want it to be. Your time is now, this second. Why not enjoy, appreciate and relish in it. You don’t have to only enjoy the end result why not enjoy the journey? The path you take to get to where you want to go should also be apart of your resolution. So I say join me this year in grabbing your resolution by the balls and make the experience your resolution not only the end result! Be a go getter and a resolution doer!!