I am an answers person. I like when something is going on in my life or if I am feeling a certain way that I have a finite answer and definition for why it’s so. This really isn’t the case for being in love. It can be one sided, unrequited, out of, in to, head over heels, loving but not in love, it could exist one moment and not the next. Sometimes you can love someone soo much it makes you ache or sick or cry or angry or sad the list goes on. Everyone has their own definition, situation, opinion and answers. Why can’t there be a right or wrong, a yes or no, a proper or improper? Some people fall in love everyday, some once in a life time others never. How is this possible?
I notice when I need advice or opinions everyone really only has their own experiences and judgments but I can never really get an exact resolution. I know what you are thinking…Love is to big or broad, it is different for everyone because everyone experiences it differently but why? I am generally not an in the box type of person and never really do anything the way one “should” but I have to admit love is the most confusing feeling ever that I can never define or figure out, even to this day. I know what I like and don’t like but that changes from day to day and person to person. Love is probably the most important feeling and or experience for every person in the world because it shapes their sense of being as early as being in the womb. It defines a persons behaviors and actions, likes and dislikes. I wish I could have control of it and be able to master it in the way I want. I want it to work with me not against me. I guess it is soo uncontrollable because its not just your feelings that have a hold on you but someone else’s as well. Other emotions are similar but I guess love is the ultimate that all of the others spring from. Love is the only emotion that can make you self conscious, elated, sad, desperate and indescribable all at the same time. It changes like a chameleon as the minutes even seconds pass. Why can’t it stay constant? Who has the answers? Who made up this love deal? Where did it come from and how do I harness it? I’d like to say your knowledge of it comes along with age but that isn’t true. I feel like the less you know about love the better sometimes. I sure don’t have the answers. I am not sure anyone does. Either way I’d like to find the person who invented it and beat them with my shoe for not leaving a manual around for the rest of us to get a grasp it this love business.